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Here we go again, the non stop changes, when is this going to stop?

 whenever we talk about it, it always ends in a fight.. it has become an unspoken subject between us; I try to think about your side, yeah I get that dad will have to travel back and forth, you guys said it was monthly, but the last time dad had to travel was in december..3 months ago..so really, the majority of the time spent is still in Vancouver. To be honest, I really don't see it as a major issue, so don't use this as one of your reasons to move..

Just two more years to go, do we really have to leave now? I only have grade eleven and twelve left.. Especially since these two years are the most crucial years of high school. Do you guys think about my courses? do you think about how i've finally settled in a school and how I'm preparing myself for IB..no, does that not matter for you guys? because i can always start over again right? the whole new environment is no big deal right? change is good right?

Have you realized that I've never stayed at a school longer than two years? Have you maybe realized how many schools I've attended since elementary? Yeah it doesn't matter to you, because I can always make new friends, adapt to the school, environment, right? You might say that I've probably been used to moving, changing environments, etc.. but really, the thought of moving scares me. 

This cycle.. cycle of you wanting to change houses, it didn't start just yesterday. Summer 08, 09, 10. Every year is the same cycle, every year I'm scared because I dont know where we're going to end up. 

My friends say "next year..this and that" I wonder to myself, if i'll even be here with the same group of people next year.  

Of course, this is all my selfish side, and with everything, theres two sides of the story..

mom thinks the education is better there; the universities in the states are better, the weather being another issue, dad's work, and the list continues.. 

I was looking forward to this summer, but it'll be a repeat of last year, and the year before that..nothing is certain, who knows what's going to happen and where we'll be heading

Those around me, this is def not the first time you've heard me rant.. it seems unbelievable how long this moving thing is still going on, I feel the same way and i wish its all a joke; something I bring up just for fun.. but it's not and i need it to end.. please let me stay here in richmond..